The past few weeks have been incredibly difficult for me. I haven’t been feeling at the top of my game lately. I have been recovering from a neck procedure, and as I was recovering, I had a tooth crack! I turned down modeling opportunity because it didn’t align with my beliefs; though I knew it was the right choice, I was still questioning my decision. As, I was sitting there bemoaning the fact that I wasn’t getting done the things I thought I needed to, a quote popped up:
“How do you do it all?”
“I don’t… If I am at home sewing my kids’ halloween costumes, I’m probably blowing off a rewrite I was supposed to turn in. If I am accepting a prestigious award, I am missing my baby’s first swim lesson. If I am at my daughter’s debut in her school musical, I am missing Sandra Oh’s last scene ever being filmed at Grey’s Anatomy. If I am succeeding at one, I am inevitably failing at the other. That is the trade-off.” -Shonda Rhimes
It forced me to pause for just a moment. As I sat there, thinking about everything a realization occurred: in order to succeed one needs to choose how one spends their time because something will always be sacrificed. However, that sacrifice isn’t always bad! If you sit and wait to see where things go.
I am grateful that I get to take the time to take care of my health, because it means I get to better my future. I didn’t get to post for a few days because it was too painful to type, so instead I storyboarded a new shoot I will be doing, and get my work sent to my photographer. On top of that, I got to spend quality time with people I love. My tooth cracked, and I had to go to the dentist, yeah, it’s painful, but at least it didn’t happen while I was on set! Also, my smiled will look even more beautiful for my next shoot! And the position I turned down to model for? I got a call asking me to help direct, and shoot for them!
What’s my point? There are going to be difficult choices that one must make in life, and in their career; those choices must be true to one’s self! If something doesn’t feel right, turn it down. If your health is in question take care of that above all else, if you need space for you-take it! If it’s a choice between being with those you love or work, choose to be with those you love. Because if you step in front of the camera full of doubt, full of pain, misery, and uncertainty it will read all over your face.
Turning modeling work down won’t end your dreams. It will make you stand in your convictions. Granted don’t turn down every job that is offered, be willing to hear someone out with an open mind. But know what is acceptable for you!
Taking a break won’t end your dreams either! It will allow you to become rejuvenated, so that the work you do will be the best you can give! Take the opportunity to refresh your soul, because you may never know what you will be able to pull out at a shoot if you don’t have new experiences.
We will never be able to do it all…but we can alway GIVE OUR ALL to what we do!